Home where is Home?

okay I have been watching the movies that are like the best ever. They are Love come softly, Loves abiding joy, Loves enduring promise, Loves long journey, Loves unending legacy, Loves Unfolding Dream. These are such awesome love stories. In one of the movies the little boy said this is not home and the mom told him home is were you are always welcome and are never alone. So i started to think were do I feel at home at. A place that I feel safe and welcome were I am so happy to get to well that place is church. How great is that to feel you are at home when you show up there. That is how I feel. I'm not alone when I'm at church and right now it seems that i am alone a lot. That is my safe haven. I love being there. Not only does my soul get feed but I get some of the companionship that i miss so much since my husband is gone so much. Which I am glad I am getting it from church and no were else. This blogging thing has been helping me also get some of my feelings out. It is helping me to see who I am and who I want to be. I think that if people get there feeling s out and are honest even when it hurts. They grow by leaps and bonds. We can only grow and be happy when we are open and honest about it all. I think so many people hide how they feel or what they want because of pride or not wanting to except what has happened. So they lie to them selves and others of fear of hurting someone when in the end they hurt them selves. This is kinda were I'm at right now I'm very confused about so many things but i know that no matter what others the church or my kids or spouse think. i must be true to who i am and what i want. And when i am there i will find happiness.