A travleing spouse!!!!!!!!

AS some of you may have known from my past blogs my hubby travels a whole lot. So I'm a single mom in many ways and it is so taking its toll on me!!! It has been a year and a half since he got the job. It is like every thing that happens in this family he is always gone so I'm left to deal with it all by my self.It gets so lonely at times i wake up alone and go to bed alone. Then when he is home i want some me time I'm so ready for a break from being the mom and dad there is no me and him. The kids miss him so much so when he is home i want him to be with them ! they are only young once and they need this time with there dad. It is so crazy they say a broken home hurts the kids well mine is not a broken home but in many ways it is. When he is home it is him and the kids i kinda step back when he is gone it is me and the kids. we are on such different pages. He is so tired when He comes homes. which i can see why.Then there is the whole church thing he is never with me there and it bothers me so bad.I would sell everything we have to have that on fire for the Lord family.The only problem is he loves his job he is so happy there he loves what he does. Which is great I'm so happy that he finally has a job he loves but it is costing us our very family.I think about the kids in so many ways they are growing up with out there dad. He misses the every day things. It is so hard i feel a lone in so many ways.We have been threw so much in our marriage and i feel as if we are not married any more we are room mates and i know that is not how God wants it. I try to say something to him but he says you want me to quit my job. It seems like we are growing in different directions he wants different things then i do. I look at what will we do when the kids are gone if he is still traveling i guess i will stay with my kids. What kind of life is that? He says he is happy and i don't get it how can you be happy when you are never at home?I think at times is that why he is happy he is not here every day to have to do the things we do that get you all crazy.When he is home for more than a few days he gets so irritable. How do you handle it . It gets so discouraging.