Part 2 of the past 2 years.

Well it was a night i will never forget.After praying for hours i felt that heavy load go away.I knew things were different.My dh travels with his job so he was away during this time and of coarse we were still fighting like crazy.There is one thing i know.When you get real with the Lord he shows up.That next day my 3 year old was jumping on the trampoline not hard at all.Then all of a sudden you here her scream.I run out and call my dh.He is in ca at the time.I run her to the er and what do you know she has broke her leg right under her knee cap.So her i was alone with 4 kids my dh in ca and he cant get a flight home and my 3 year ole with a broke leg in a cast that covers her entire leg.Well lets just say it was hard but during that time the Lord showed me so much.Here i was alone no one to share this heavy load my mom gone my dh traveling and me alone with 4 kids from age 10 down to 2.I couldn't figure out what the Lord was doing but in knew he was doing something.Well after that long 6 weeks i seen what he was doing he was making me lean on him.I had no one but him the way the Lord wants it .He wants us to lean on him.Since that march day he has done so much for me.Threw all that he has given me a joy that i can not put into words.A love for my dh like i have ever known.and my kids.I have been with my dh for around 16 years and Iam more in love with him today then i have ever been.All this by trusting the Lord and leaning on him He has taken the fears and hurt away.Now when my dh leaves instead of thanking God he is gone and dreading when he comes home. I cant wait till he gets home i miss him so much. I love to just be with him.I cant wait to grow old and sit with him and laugh.So in a nut shell threw the loss of my mom and the fighting of my dh and I.The breaking of my daughters leg.The Lord has showed me i need to only serve Him and make Him happy no one Else i need to live for him.My joy doesn't come from others or things it comes from the Lord.