PART 5

It had to see my mama my heart was racing and i was mad needless to say i was not going to let this cancer do this she wanted to come home and she was.If i could have went onto a boxing ring with cancer i would have killed it i had so much anger and hate along with hurt in me i could have done damage just wiped it out!!!!well so i thought i could.As i r=write this i play that night over i remember it all every detail as i sit here i can feel all those emotions i can even smell what it smelled like at that point in time.We get there and she is out i hit my knees and beg God please just let her come to so i can tell her i love her one last time.she was hanging on by a thread .My pastor had called me and the my associate pastor and they were all praying.I knew there were some people that were getting a hold of God.They were ringing heavens bell.I could fell the prayers as they were going up.You could see my mom fighting hard she was trying her best to open her eyes but she couldn't you would see her eyebrows go up she was fighting hard and in my heart i was fighting to .Then my son woke up and i laid him next to her and said momma Christopher is here he is laying beside you and i want you to know he can see the Lord has touched him momma.she really started to fight as he laid next to her and it was like in a split second she had opened her eyes.The joy that i felt was so UN real the docs couldn't believe it. her blood pressure was 60 over 40 she was out.There is just one thing God was in control not me not the doc but he was.there is something in the innocence of a child a pureness a child that has faith and trust the Lord a child that has no fears God used that baby in his pureness to touch her i believe like the woman that had the blood disorder that said if i can just touch the hem of his garment.I seen God touch my mom at that very moment.when she couldn't come to him He came to her.Here is were me and cancer came face to face.My mom got just well enough to bring her home. i flew home got the room ready to bring my mommy home.she arrived in the transport van. When the pulled her out i looked deep into her eyes and said momma your home.She smiled the happiest smile you had ever seen.i sit by her side day in and day out feed her and bathe her. I pray with her she looks at me and says i don't want to go alone as she hols my hand i Tell her i want let go i will hole on to her till Jesus take g=her hand.