PART 7 THE LAST ROUND WITH CANCER

I was holding her had as i told her i would I prayed as all the nurses gathered around aloud and i don't do that But God showed up and filled that room and as she meet the Lord when her last breath was taken my soul shouted i mean it was like my inside screamed Glory!!!!!! And my heart started singing what a day that will be when my Jesus i shall see when i look upon His face the one who saved me by his grace.when He takes me by the hand and leads me to that promise land what a day glorious day that will be.SO i new when she meet him and had crossed that old chilly Jordan river.Because he put that song in my heart at that very moment.So now my mom was healed and here i was dieing inside cancer was affecting me in ways i could not see.IT was lurking around my dreams and thoughts.as i would close my eyes i would see it. i would see every thing it had done in that last 3 years the hurt the pain the sickness.It was like it wouldn't stop. it was taking control over me running my life no one seen what it had done to me not even my hubby .still to this day I don’t think he knows what it did to me. I was in the fight still after she was gone it was affecting me and my family my kids and hubby even my walk with the Lord. I had fought it for almost 2 more years after my mom passed. It had eat at me and eat at me. Then I finally laid it down I seen I had no control the only one who did was the Lord not me. I realized I didn’t have to fight this thing called cancer any more the Lord would do it for me. And he did and he won so there for I won .yes I did I won the battle. Cancer no longer has a hold on me. God is the only thing that has a hold on me. So that is my fight against cancer.